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[Oct. 15th, 2009|01:55 am] |
Today is the day where I have stopped believing karma exists. I feel so hurt humiliated and disgusting I never want to leave my house. I feel sick and just cant help wonder wtf have i done to deserve this.
I can't even imagine how Im gonna get through each day at this rate. I broke up with him cos he cheated on me and hit me Ifelt scared with him yet Im being punished and now Im just a girl who got used and a laughing stock. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2009|01:22 pm] |
So I broke up with Jonny and I'm finding life strange you kind of don't know what to do with yourself. So I'm in that process of reinventing yourself. I got my smily pierced feels well weird and I'm going back to green hair. I have a huge cold and couldn't go to my pepis appointment so for the next week I have to have butch green lesbian hair.
I'm now doing fitness classes haha and I started my course in sign language.
I want to do a makaton class as its working with deaf babies.
Works really helping me keeping my mind of things and I'm having a boys sleepover at adams soon and ross' birthday the day after so should be good.
Life moves forward not back =] |
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| Heather is confused |
[Jul. 14th, 2009|04:25 pm] |
I am having another heather breakdown where I blow everything out of proportion haha.
I have decided to do more of Heather time and stop caring so much about life and work lol and just have fun. Also I have some kind of problem where whatever i eat comes straight out of me how I chewed it how sexy am I:D so yeh should go to the doctors even tho i like not puttin on weight haha.
ALL I WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW IS SMILE AND LAUGH SOMEONE HELP ME DO THAT LOL X |
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|12:07 pm] |
well I couldn't get to work today due to this tube strike as they shut down the chiltern line from stoke to london I left early and walked all the way back.
I texted my manager because today I'm doing a long shift. And they would obviously need someone else to cover. I rang the shop for ages and when I finally got an answer at 11:30 I pretty much got told I was lying! which may sound no big deal to you but really fucking pissed me off.
One I said I have proof
two it will probably also be on the fucking news as about 700 commuters wouldn't have been able to get to work as well.
three I am really trying to get further with this company as I have been there for two years now so I wouldn't fuck them about( even though they will lever give me a chance).
four I SPEND THREE HUNDRED POUNDS OF MY PAY ON A TICKET TO GET THERE WHY WOULD I TRY WASTE MORE MONEY ON NOT TURNING UP.
I really love working where i work and have made great friends but it just seems to get un professional, bitchy and petty. when I come to work I can't be arsed to deal with peoples moods coz I get brought down with them. If you wanna cry do it on your own in a corner. not on me.
This is the only way i can moan about it haha so TADAAAAAAAAAAAA thats my mood right now |
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| I'm homeeeee |
[Jun. 4th, 2009|09:13 pm] |
Well I'm back home and I love it. I feel so much less stressed it is really strange. I love living back in a nice area and not in the GHETTO it is rather plesent. I'm learning my sign as well as commuting which is going ok I actually get up early but feel so much better.
I met this lady on the train who teaches sign and she invited me to this deaf club to get involved and shes eager about my dance teaching plan =D.
I miss the wifeeey but shes doing fine;)
Work can be a bit stressful cos people just seem to constantly be down and crying and it's annoying coz I then get drained from everyones emotion haha. they are called moodhoovers.
My tattoos are booked =] and I have lost weight from comuting its strange.
I saw OB from hollyoaks on the tube yesterday was fab. |
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[May. 9th, 2009|10:11 pm] |
Well an update is needed so I remeber this part of my life if I look back on this.
I'm soon moving back to Aylesbury and I can't fucking wait. I always wanted to live in London but to be honest it's not me at all. I really enjoy going out with work people more and if I go out just get a taxi(I hate night buses) home. I've made some really good friends moving here but uni sucked and I can't wait to start something new.
I'm going in sign language I really enjoy it and I have already began my book done one dvd and ordered my second one and my course doesn't start till sept haha geek.
I really like working more but sometimes I wish I was given the oppitunity to have more responsibility as I think I can do really well and been there a long time but I think because I'm too happy they don't take me as seriously.. if that makes sense. But everything is going good.
I have had so many illnesses this year and I do actually blame london. haha and the fact the shop use to be FREEEEZING!=P
Right I'm off to take the bleach off my browsss sooooo cool=]
The picture below is funny coz I have a halarious eye.
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| I suppose i should update |
[Apr. 18th, 2009|10:36 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | music |
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WOW so I am two hours early for work and I travelled from Aylesbury so I was up well early today gr but I luckily have my laptop. ALSO I HAVE THE WORLDS FRIZZYEST HAIR!
Urm I'm moving back how in about a month which I'm weirdly excited for even though I'm going back where I started I'm excited for a new start if that makes sense. I'm still gonna work at Cyberdog as its cheaper to comute each day and I enjoy it here. I'm starting a sign language course which you do levels in and I think I'm actually pretty good at it. I think its weirdly like dancing haha. sign dancing;).
I'm also going to learn to drive and have a cute little green car and pimp it up. I wanna save and have fun!
The house is a shit pile and I'm stressed about it but when I get home tonight I am determined to clean zeee garden so my mum shuts up haha.
Also I need some form of exercise except for sex as I'm not dancing as much anymore. but not running coz I look like a pleb.
BAM IS ONE YEARS OLD WOW |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2009|02:18 am] |
this is what a fake blonde has to do..
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| AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THEIR LIFE? |
[Feb. 16th, 2009|11:11 pm] |
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I am just not happy anymore I dont feel like uni is right for me. but quiting is so hard to do with everyone else thinking less of you if you do. I don't even think work would want me full time but I do enjoy it more then being at uni these days I HATE EVERYTHING |
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[Feb. 15th, 2009|08:39 pm] |
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Hiii well I am bored so I thought insted of going downstairs and finding a killer in the house I will sit up here till he goes away and write this.
Just got in from work megan wont stop meowing she likes to make you watch her poo or at least scream about how she will poo before she goes. The new cyberdog is open and busy as helll.People have mixed oppinions about it, One man said he was disgusted and nearly cried coz he liked the old shop GET A LIFE ITS A SHOP.
I'm having one of those " what do i wanna do with my life"days today.
I went out facedown last weekend and it was rathhhher gooood but the best part was the next day with no sleep taking pro plus for the first time I WAS HIGH AS FUCK it was crazy never taking it again ended up being awake till 3 the next day!!!
I want my new tattooos welllll bad and to go back to pepis and gert green hairrr again.
I really wanna go disney land!
vagina lips no make up amd leaf
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[Feb. 1st, 2009|11:19 pm] |
well today I woke up at ten past nine when I should have left for work at nine so I sent megan flying waking up and chucking on the worst out fit in the world! Was a bit tired I went out to scala with vicky was alright not that brill drank vodka for like the first time in forever! was nice to see people though.
Spent loads of money on AnnaLou jewellery and a green suitcase yum. Went out with laura this week and spent £50 on cocktails. BUT it reminded me of when I was underage and got drunk early coz afterwards we were walking around central and haven't felt so tipsy in ages.
Moving to the new cyberdog shop on tuesday(round the corner) gonna be wellll weird.
Thinking of dying my hair green again and I might go to pepis again even tho I went recently I'm obsessed.
I have bleached brows now haha half blonde half green .sex.
Think I'm going to scala again on friday to facedown sticking to my new years resolution.
Also the snow is mental kinda annoyed tho coz I wanna get my tattoos tommorrow but I bet I will be snowed in haha!
Heres some pics of my weekksss
 
 
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[Jan. 30th, 2009|11:54 pm] |
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[Jan. 8th, 2009|11:00 pm] |
Well Heather got a kitten and I think after a milliong names even beverly I like megan well done laura. Video of her below.
And yes she has a green litter tray and bowl haha. xxxxxx |
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| wow so its christmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|11:47 am] |
I got some really good presents this year! I feel really happy haha.
I can't wait for fooooood I am staving. Jonnys family got me so much I felt bad. He got me an N64 =D! I can't wait for banjo kasueee and 007 golden eye OH YES!
We also got an adventue day of those huge blow up balls that you go in and ride down a hill I CAN'T WAIT. I also got this to add to my collection of geen =]
I had a steak and chips for xmas eve was so good. I love xmas everyones happy theres food every where and booze and your surrounded by most the people you love!
PS: VICKY AND LAURA THANKS FOR PRESSYS THEY ARE AMAZING=D!
wow me smiling..
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[Dec. 17th, 2008|12:45 am] |
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Hm I am excited when I wrap xmas presents but other than that I don't feel like its xmas at all. I'm more excited to go back to AY see Jono and eat curry. Haha. But yeh not too much xmas as I'm working a lot but yehhhh moneyyy =]
to some off how my life is right now...
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